I miss eating!

In contrast to my last post about being only 1 pound away from goal ( i have to keep perspective), I also really miss eating. I don't mean literally eating but eating like I did before.

This morning, we took the dogs for a walk, and I missed going to the bagel shop for a weekend breakfast. Went to the movies yesterday and I just really wanted a diet coke! Not to mention candy and popcorn.

And last night, after a long day, I would've LOVED to have ordered a pizza.

Usually this change is affirming and positive, but on occasion it's just a total bummer!

My stomach is full...

...but my mind is still hungry.

Even when I'm Thanksgiving-full! It's so weird!

Mmm...Edamame Hummus

I was wandering around Whole Foods today after a doctor's appointment and discovered "Edamame Hummus" in their prepared foods area.

I've been on the lookout for new soft food options. This one is particularly good since the lap-band diet requires high protein.

AND it's really good!

Image via the Food Network. They also have a great recipe here.
It just happens to be from Ellie Kreiger.

I feel SO MUCH BETTER

By the way, for those of you who knew how bad this week was for me, I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER!

Whew!

I just pigged out on humus

Okay, so control is going to be an issue.

Since it's pretty soft, I decided to allow myself some humus after I went shopping.

OMG! YUMMMM!!!!

I'm going to have to control myself. I've decided to limit my calorie count to 1300 calories per day, plus exercise of course. I'm already walking quite a bit between my commute and the dog walks. Will join the gym once my stomach is healed up a bit more.

I got that recommended calorie count from livestrong.com which has lots of great diet stuff.

My first post-band shopping experience

I was taken aback that it really was different shopping post band. I stocked up on TONS of protein shakes previously, so the couple of other grocery store trips I've made have been in and out to get a specific thing.

However, since I'm on to mushes tomorrow, I decided to make a pilgrimage to Whole Foods knowing they'd have tons of specialty vegetarian foods. Boy did they ever.

I had a mixture of emotions.

At first I surprised myself by not wanting lots of things, but then as I shopped I was part excited by the things I was seeing, but the other part of me was really angry for doing this (lap-band) and was mad that I can't eat so much of what I was seeing.

Everywhere I went there were chips and some of the soft foods I was buying would go SO WELL with tortilla chips! And, Whole Foods sells my favorite tortilla chips, Green Mountain Gringo.

Lots of things made it into my basket, but I had to do my usual little purge at the end as there was no way what I was buying was within my 10lb carrying range.

I had to remind myself there will be plenty of time to buy more stuff. Definitely planning on putting a couple of things I bought in the food processor. For those of you out there also on the mush diet, Amy's has a "veggie loaf" that is very soft (shown third to last here). A few of their frozen foods looked ideal to stick in a food processor.

The biggest find! A vegetarian mousse / terrine. Yay!

Of course being in New York without a car, I don't always get over to Whole Foods without a big shlepp, but I'll make a point to.

My other big question was how much to buy. I don't have a sense of how much I'll be eating per meal yet. However, my goal for myself is 1300 calories. Perhaps higher than we're supposed to have, but with exercise, I think I need that to stay sane.

More to come on how the weekend goes...

Ahhhh...

Ok, so I FINALLY got some relief!

Between my therapy session today and a number of stress-reduction techniques she taught me, the thin potato soup (minus the potatoes) that I had for dinner (ie: NOT A SHAKE OR JUST BROTH), PLUS the meal planning I'm doing because Saturday I can friggin "eat" again (even if it's mushes), I feel like I can breathe again, and I'm finally not so friggin depressed.

Whew!