Woke up this morning to find I'm two pounds down!

Yay! I was actually a bit hesistant to weigh myself this morning since I wasn't very good last week or this weekend. So I was shocked to see I'm two pounds down.

I did miss my most recent goal, to have lost 35 pounds by the shower, but I've lost 33 pounds, so I'm only two away!

My next goal is 40 pounds by my 35th birthday party/bachelorette party the weekend of Oct 16th. Super excited about that. I'll have to wrap those 2 lonely pounds into the next goal. So 7 pounds in 18 days.

I'm revisiting the protein shakes today to help make that happen because I realllly want to make that goal!

My wedding dress arrived! Now I just need to lose 20 more pounds!

My wedding dress came in a few weeks early, so I was able to try it on. I ordered it a size too small knowing I'm losing weight post-surgery, but I was pleasantly surprised to see that it went on and looked great!

Mostly... Okay, so the top of the zipper wouldn't quite close! But I love it. I think if I even lost 5 pounds it'd zip. 10 pounds it'd really fit, but 20 might mean no spanx!! :)

The good news is that I have 50 days or 7 weeks to lose it!

Finally heading in the right direction!

So I *finally* lost another pound. Seems small but I had been stalled until I got my fill this past Monday. The fill definitely made a difference and I can't eat much at a sitting. Haven't been feeling the need to compulsively eat either (my head doesn't seem to care if I'm full or not!)

So, this last pound finally dropped off. I'm one more away from 30lbs and 6 away from my next goal. My calf is healing. I can walk now, but am taking it easy on stairs etc.

ug! I actually gained a pound back!

Okay, so this hunger is catching up to me. Some of it's hunger, and some of it is just a compulsion to eat. Quite frustrating.

And when I'm tired or don't feel good, I feel compelled to eat even more.

Actually just had an entire slice of pizza for lunch. Last week I couldn't even get down half a slice.

Hoping the hypnosis tonight and Monday's fill do the trick!

I bought a new wedding dress

So as I've mentioned Alex and I are getting married Nov 7th. I'm very excited! However, I was having my wedding dress customized, and when it came in the mail for the first fitting, I just didn't like it! I guess that's the chance you take.

Wedding dress shopping in general was frustrating because of the lack of plus size dresses I could try on. And the general policy is that if you buy it, you can't return it. So I wasn't in a position to even order any of the dresses that weren't in my size to try them on.

So when the dress came in recently, I made an appointment to at least try some options at the new David's Bridal that opened in Manhattan knowing that at least online they have more plus size options.

While they didn't have any of the dresses I had liked online, they did have things in my size I could try on. (yay!)

So on a whim, I got a new dress (shown here). It was a steal of a deal price-wise which made it not as bad that the first one didn't work (that one was a steal too!)

The catch is, I had to take a guess on the size since I'm losing weight. So I ordered one size lower than what I tried on.

So nowwwwww, I better get to losing! The dress arrives early October, and I'll be upset if it doesn't fit. Of course, I've already thought I might be wearing double spanx if it doesn't fit! ha!

The wedding isn't until Nov 7th however, so I have 2 months to lose one dress size. Definitely doable.

Another weight loss marker

So I've been looking at the weight loss calculator I have in the right hand column, and I see that even though I've lost a bunch of weight, my BMI calculator still shows me as above 40 which surprises me.

When I started this, my BMI was over 45. That was one of the major factors in deciding to have the surgery. People can qualify with a BMI of 35 and higher (with other health conditions). And mine was a shocking 45!

Soooo...I'm pleased to see that not only will my next goal be 10 more pounds down, but it'll also put me under a 40 bmi.

Yay!

Now I'm getting obsessive

I have just 1/2 pound to make my goal tomorrow. So i took a long walk at lunch and am going light on the food today.

In fact, I'm so distracted by this need to make tomorrow's goal that I've entirely forgotten about the fact that I can eat normal foods tomorrow. Except those that are off my list entirely as a lap-band patient.

Can't wait to have a piece of toast!!! I'm specifically thinking bruschetta. Or a grilled cheese sandwich...

More on all that later. For now, liquids and soft foods and half a pound to go!

The dogs will be getting a LONG walk tonight!

One more pound until my next goal!

I'm happily shocked that I've gotten so close to my next goal so soon.
Now it seems so attainable!

One more pound by Tuesday and I'll reach my second mini-goal of 25 pounds by the end of the post-op diet! Yay!

I'm going to try and walk my butt of this weekend (literally)!

Weight Loss Goals

Just added some weight loss goals to the side panel on the right.
So I can consistently keep track of where I am and where I'm headed...

Small goals are attainable, and I've already got one crossed off the list. Yay! For the foreseeable future, I'm most eager to reach the 40 lb goal as that'll get me into a bunch of clothes that haven't fit for a while.

I'm happy with the 2009 goals. Though I think my 2010 goals may be too ambitious, so I reserve the right to adjust those come next year!

15 pounds lost
by surgery date (8/4/09)

25 pounds lost
by end of post-op diet (8/25/09)

40 pounds lost
by bridal shower (9/26/09)

50 pounds lost
by 35th birthday (10/16/09)

60 pounds lost
by wedding! (11/7/09)

75 pounds lost
by New Years 2009

85 pounds lost
by honeymoon (Feb 2010)

100 pounds lost
by TESOL (3/23/10)

110 pounds lost
by June 2010

125 pounds lost
GOAL!
by Aug 2010

I've been using visualization techniques and these small goals are useful for that as I can see myself and how I'll be at each stage of weight loss.

I should put pics of myself at each of those weights over the years as an extra added bonus! Except this time I'll be moving forward...